Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Moderation, why it doesn't work for me

Why doesn't moderation work for me?  Because I have no self-control. End of post. Have a good day!

Just kidding.  Let's explore it a little more.  Moderation is a popular term in eating, but usually only when trying to justify an unhealthy food.  It sounds good doesn't it?  It sounds reasonable too: eat healthy most of the time, but if you want a cookie enjoy your cookie.

The problem with me is that I don't eat just the cookie, I'll eat the box.  True story, I tried to just eat a couple of Girl Scout cookies, I turned around and I had eaten the whole box.  If I'm eating chips keep your hands away, fingers could become a casualty. It's not even so much that I really love junk food, I think it's because it seems to now be forbidden foods.  In my mind if I have one piece I may as well eat it all because I've already eaten something I shouldn't have eaten.

When I started eating better, I tried to eat special treats in moderation, but I struggled with the moderation part.  Then, I felt guilty about overeating on junk food.  It was an unpleasant cycle.  At the same time, I wasn't comfortable swearing off junk food and I didn't know what else to do.  I thought if I stopped eating junk food altogether  I would be some kind of weirdo.

Fast forward to a couple of years ago, I was standing in the lobby of my work and a guest was politely refusing the candy on the receptionist's desk, explaining she "didn't do" moderation.  What?!?!  I thought this was how we all cheated on healthy eating and didn't feel guilty about it.  She went on to explain she didn't have a lot of self-control and to avoid eating the whole jar of candy, she didn't eat any candy.  At first, I felt sorry for her...never eating candy?  What an unpleasant life.  Then, I realized I had the same problem.  I have no self-restraint.  My "special treats" were no longer special, I was eating whatever was offered to me whenever it was offered.